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Carrie Chau iGoogle Theme

2008-09-15T12:29:00.000-07:00

My new iGoogle theme of the week is designed by Hong Kong illustrator/artist Carrie Chau. Her work seems to be populated with Yoshitomo Nara's girls on holiday or at recess. The colors and sense of movement are making my Monday feel a little bit sweeter.

Check out her description of the first painting, translated from Chinese :

A Non-Stop Big Rope Game

The simplest game is always the most fascinated one. The big rope game attracts more and more people to join in, having fun in the beautiful sky, even Dinosaur wants to join us! We have a very lovely time until Mr. Cloud comes, we might be too noisy... :( But don't worry, let's have a good sweet dream from the very silent sky and we'll get together again tomorrow!

Related links:
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2008-06-03T09:42:00.000-07:00

Back on track!

Spring semester grades just came out & I got an A- on my capstone research project.

Romance is great, working at the library with the kiddies is great - they do so warm the cockles of my heart - and I'm getting a little better at money.

I think I'll be back to blogging a bit on this here. I need a focus - it will probably be public library related, book reviews for the kids and the like. Time to get the act together.

Dear World

2007-06-01T05:57:00.000-07:00

Guess what - Life is hard.

I have divided up why life is hard and overwhelming into three categories:

1. Money
a. Have recently discovered I owe approximately three thousand dollars to the IRS. But maybe they are wrong. If they are wrong I don't know how to prove it because these forms are making my head hurt and my eyes cross.

b. Also despite aggressive attempts to pay down credit card debt, I'm still in hock almost $3700.

2. Health
a. Am getting fatter
b.Need a pair of eyeglasses like yesterday
c. The biggest scariest thing of all: my teeth are rotting out of my head and i have no money to pay to fix them. scratch that, the insurance will pay only $2000 total for a tooth and i need alot more work than that done. I have two teeth in the back with increasingly wide holes growing in them, there's one tooth in the front with a dark grey shadow looming and one metal witch tooth that has needed a crown for over year and a half.
d. Need to get myself to a therapist for multiple reasons.

3. Personal
a. Too many dates, hardly any emotional gravity.
b. I am mediocre to poor at following through on all the projects I want to do: gym, quilting, walking dogs for BARC, curtains. I am above average to outstanding at watching television shows and accumulating more books than I can consume.

If I can systematically attack and fix these problems I will feel better about myself, like I'm maybe becoming someone I can be proud of/look up to.

Open Your Heart

2007-05-07T16:24:00.000-07:00

ETA: yes yes yes, the Siren Music Festival schedule has been announced & Lavender Diamond is playing, along with Matt & Kim and the lovely scottish band The Twilight Sad. I bet those other bands are great as well.

Lavender Diamond is here with a new album that makes me feel warm and happy inside. I'm serious, this music cheers me up in a way that tea with toast and an impossibly long and compulsively readable book - my usual go to remedy for pushing away my black moods - just doesn't do.

Who will dance in the park with me this summer?
Who wants to see them live in June at the Bowery Ballroom?

get it together

2007-05-05T18:52:00.000-07:00

man, i need to get it together! i need to take a shower and clean out my contact lenses as the world looks kind of furry through these eyes right now.

i turned down hanging out with this boy, and this other boy and hanging out for most of the day because i was supposed to write a paper.

did i write the paper? no of course not - instead i watched a medium quality episode of The Office, downloaded a bunch of sad bitch music, and felt moody and then ambivalent and then upset about sex. That is not a good state to find yourself moping about in so lets get it together.

2007-04-27T14:06:00.000-07:00

today has been a weird day - i cried, i smiled hard, i kissed someone a whole lot, i barely slept, i got in trouble, i went home & watched Peep Show, i made some realizations with the help of some smart girls.

i'm confused about my own life, so i'm going to stop thinking about it, and start thinking about the Ian Curtis biopic, Control - which is supposed to be out in the theaters sometime soonish I believe. And, courtesy of IONCINEMA.com, a first picture.

Dandelion Season!

2007-04-24T09:15:00.000-07:00

while walking to work this morning i came across a little patch of grass in front of the courthouse in queens that's been covered in scaffolding all winter. the scaffolding is finally down and dandelions are sprouting up all over.

picking dandelions is lovely because:

1. they're common enough that i don't feel guilty about picking them when i haven't planted them myself. dandelions plant themselves - they plant themselves plentiful & there sure were plenty leftover for the bees once i took a handful for myself.

2. their petals are soft & i like to rub my nose in them.

3. their scent is so delicate & not too flowery. they just smell like spring and summer camp and grubbing around outside with no responsibilities.

unfortunately, they also like to rub their pollen off on your face. unfortunately i never remember that. unfortunately i walked half a mile like a ditz sniffing my little bouquet and got a face full of yellow.

the upside: no one wanted to stand next to me in the elevator and that's a-ok with me.

"my prose flows like boxed merlot"

2007-04-20T09:15:00.000-07:00

Best find of the day comes from Gawker.

Yay Kreepie Kats! Who's gonna give them their own teevee show?

Picnic season

2007-04-20T07:41:00.000-07:00

Spring (Apple Blossoms) by John Everett Millais,

Lady Lever Art Gallery, Port Sunlight, England

Spring Awakening.

New crushes.

Baring my arms did not seem so scary today.

xox

dating only usually sucks

2007-04-14T12:57:00.000-07:00

I had a date with someone new (v. tall, blonde, substantial hand size, wore wire rim glasses but not the annoying kind) two nights ago. It was pretty alright - no kissing but the fact that he emailed again is a good sign. The fact that I was not freaked out that he emailed again is a very good sign.

We talked about things like:

my favorite british satire show, Look Around You.
stereotypically, who wins the prize for biggest retail snob - video store clerks or bookstore employees
his #1 all time favorite philosopher, Heidegger
Roald Dahl and Mr Wizard's World
old timey boxers who wear suspenders
living in the south.

I can't remember what else we talked about because I got kind of tippled what with the gin I sucked down before he got to the bar, and the jovial spirit of Riffifi that encourages continual imbibement - every dating advice list I've ever seen advises against getting drunk on a first date, but what can you do?

2006-12-22T10:15:00.000-08:00

we filled our pockets with dry leaves,/made leafy pillows and lay down/beneath the cinnamon tree.

we stared up at the sun with our eyes closed/and saw the dust in the air turn into fireflies/we lay with the day.

the wind snuck into the cracks of our sleeves/and played songs in our ears./i used to watch you sleeping.
-writtenandcreated by jonsi&alex

what does a cinnamon tree smell like? i imagine the bark to be thin and crackly. i should like very much to lay with the day, in a meadow behind a house, long grass growing up around me, fall asleep like rip van winkle, lying within a hallowed circle of stones and bones, books and paper.

fall to your knees

2006-12-17T10:18:00.000-08:00

from Pilgrim at Tinker Creek by Annie Dillard

Chapter One: Heaven and Earth in Jest

I used to have a cat, an old fighting tom, who would jump through
the open window by my bed in the middle of the night and land on my chest.
I'd half-awaken. He'd stick his skull under my nose and purr, stinking
of urine and blood. Some nights he kneaded my bare chest with his
front paws, powerfully, arching his back, as if sharpening his claws,
or pummeling a mother for milk. And some mornings I'd wake in daylight
to find my body covered with paw prints in blood; I looked as though I'd been painted with roses.

It was hot, so hot the mirror felt warm. I washed before the
mirror in a daze, my twisted summer sleep still hung about me like sea kelp.
What blood was this, and what roses? It could have been the rose of union, the blood of murder, or the rose of beauty bare and the blood of some unspeakable sacrifice or birth. The sign on my body could have been an emblem or a stain, the keys to the kingdom or the mark of Cain. I never knew. I never knew as I washed,
and the blood streaked, faded, and finally disappeared, whether I'd purified myself or ruined the blood sign of the passover. We wake, if we ever wake at all, to
mystery, rumors of death, beauty, violence. . . . 'Seem like we're
just set down here,' a woman said to me recently, 'and don't nobody
know why.'

These are morning matters, pictures you dream as the final wave heaves
you up on the sand to the bright light and drying air. You remember
pressure, and a curved sleep you rested against, soft, like a scallop in its shell. But the air hardens your skin; you stand; you leave the lighted shore to explore somedim headland, and soon you're lost in the leafy interior, intent, remembering nothing."

Looking for in and out books

2006-11-27T12:53:00.000-08:00

One of the judges who sat on the panel for the National Book Award for Young People's Literature, Linda Sue Park, had this to say about what she was looking for in books she considered as finalists in a blog post about the book award experience:

In reading a book [I look] "for two primary qualities: I think of them as 'in' and 'out.' When I'm reading, I want to be 'in' the story. You know the feeling: I want to find it so compelling that I can't bear to put it down. When I do have to put it down and am getting on with the rest of my life, that's the 'out' part--I'm out of the story but I want it to be with me still. I'll find myself thinking about it, wondering about the character(s), recalling scenes or images. A story both 'in' and 'out' for me: That's what I was seeking."

I've read a couple books like this in the past year, and am always on the lookout for more. The links I've provided will point you to the best blog posts I've found on each book, as I am not in the right frame of mind to give these books the just write up they deserve.

The Amulet of Samarkand by Jonathan Stroud
A Drowned Maiden's Hair by Laura Amy Schlitz
Man Stealing for Fat Girl's by Michelle Embree
Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro
Rose of No Man's Land by Michelle Tea
Towelhead by Alicia Erian
The Stolen Child by Keith Donohue

"funny"

2006-11-23T12:00:00.000-08:00

The Quotation Mark Abuse Pool on Flickr....

....makes me laugh every time!

prose poem that guts me like a fish

2006-11-20T09:22:00.000-08:00

Let’s just get this out in the open.

I was 14 and madly in love for the first time. He was 21. He made me suddenly, unaccustomedly beautiful with his kisses and mix tapes. During the year of elation and longing, he never mentioned that he had a girlfriend who lived across the street. A serious girl. A girl his age. A girl he loved. Unlike inappropriate, high school, secret me.

The next time, I was 15 visiting a friend at college. It was a friend’s friend’s boyfriend who looked like Jim Morrison and wore leather pants and burned candles and incense. She was at work and I wanted him to touch me. She found out. I don’t know what happened after that.

I was 19 and he was my boyfriend’s archrival. I was 20 and it was my lover’s girlfriend and we had to lie because otherwise he always wanted to watch. I was 24 and her girlfriend knew about it but then changed her mind about the open relationship. We saw each other anyway. I was 30 and we wanted each other but were committed to other people; the way we look at each other still scorches the walls. I turned thirty-something and pointedly wasn’t invited to a funeral/ a wedding/ a baby shower because of a rumor.

I am a few years older now and I know this: There are tastes of mouths I could not have lived without; there are times I’ve pretended it was just about the sex because I couldn’t stand the way my heart was about to burst with happiness and awe and I couldn’t be that vulnerable, not again, not with this one. That waiting to have someone’s stolen seconds can burn you alive. That the shittiest thing you can do in the world is lie to someone you love; also that there are certain times you have no other choice – not honoring this fascination, this car crash of desire, is also a lie. [cliché]That there is power in having someone risk everything for you. That there is nothing more frightening than being willing to take this freefall. That it is not as simple as we were always promised. Love – at least the pair-bonded, prescribed love – does not conquer all.

Arrow, meet heart. Apple, meet Eve.

-daphne gottlieb

the Look Book

2006-11-16T17:50:00.000-08:00

This is my favorite thing right now, New York street fashion extrapolated and analyzed by the subjects themselves.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR LOOK? I guess you would call it fussy. I was brought up in that era of suits and dresses with coats, and that is the way I continue to dress. I have a drawer, and I bet I have 50 pairs of gloves in it. All kinds, from the wrist to above the elbow.

Musicbox Music

2006-11-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

Who couldn't be hypnotized by the sounds of a music box? There's something so wonderfully eerie found in its echos and reverb - ghostlike, childlike. I've been thinking that maybe I would like to collect music boxes - though only if I could assure myself that I'd stick with it and accumulate tons of them, I want to be known as the girl who collects weird old music boxes. Secretly I want to be like the cranky old man from Pollyanna with prisms strewn through his house - I feel like collecting music boxes could help me reach this goal.

With this in mind, I started thinking about musicians that utilize music boxes in various fashions in their music. I know I've heard it done lots, but here are a few I came up with at the moment.

The first time I heard this done was on The Fakes record, on the song Pretty Ballerina Pleasure. Song opens with that same tinkling tune that every jewelry box with a pop up twirling ballerina plays - most girls will recognize this song even if they never owned one themselves. The rest of the song is a sort of riot grrrl cacophony of distorted whispered singing about being a pretty little girl.

The art punk psych folk new weird america band, CocoRosie, released an album in 2003, La Maison de Mon Rêve that is described as deceptively innocent: enchanting and sweet yet eerie and twisted. An acoustic guitar paints melody through a haze of cryptic sounds and perversely angelic voices. A broken radio transmits a music box orchestra. Tiny field mice sing gospel. A music box orchestra! Sounds of broken toys dancing in the fields! An operatic voice singing from behind a mask of tragedy. You see what I mean, how wonderful, how wonderful!

Bjork. Vespertine. From an interview with David Hemingway, printed in Record Collector Magazine. I'd always wanted to work with music boxes but it was waiting for the right occasion. I'd been collecting them and stuff. The main thing was that I wanted to write my own songs in music boxes. In the beginning, the music box company weren't very excited. They'd made wooden boxes for eons and I wanted see-through plexiglass. They couldn't get their head round it - they were like 'Why?' They wanted to make the plonky sound softer with wood but I wanted it as hard as possible, like it was frozen. In the end, they said it was the best thing they'd ever done. Enough said, perhaps?

My last musicbox music recommendation is from a girl from France named Colleen. Or wait, does she perform music as Colleen when her name is something else? I am not sure, but you should definitely listen to this radio show, archived on the WNYC website from October, where she talks about the music she creates with a mix of acoustic instruments - classical guitar, music boxes, cello, bells - and electronic digital delays. She performs four songs live on air.

2006-11-09T14:42:00.000-08:00

'...knitted wellington boots, knitted pot plants, a knitted sink, knitted stove, knitted vegemite jars...' Its funny, this resurgence of knitting as a trend, what with all the articles titled Knitting! The New Yoga! & say that knitting is not just for Grannies anymore! But these Australian grannies made a whole room of 1950s life out of knitted & crocheted yarn... so much cooler than the endless scarves and squares I pump out. Goodbye Lenin, indeed.

Autumnal Poetry

2006-11-06T22:13:00.000-08:00

Last fall I ordered a chapbook written by my favorite contemporary poet, Louise Gluck. It is called October and was to be a birthday present for myself. The chapbook never arrived and I was never charged for it. With the darkening of the night and the stagnant greyness of the days, I forgot all about finding it elsewhere.

The winter passage was survived, and the rain arrived to scrub the ground clean of dry grasses. The sun blossoms trees, and we remember the feeling that is yearly forgotten about the beauty of awakening life, the feeling of hope running through your blood and lining the pit of your stomach.

And today, after a full year of seasonal changes, the thin black chapbook lined with one stark poem has unexpectedly arrived. October arrived in November, right when I needed it more than ever. Thank you.

Missing DC

2006-11-02T11:37:00.000-08:00

I moved to Brooklyn in the summer of 2005 from Washington DC. I came here partly to go back to school, partly to follow love and partly as a way to change my life. I loved DC for many years, but it made me feel stuck. So here I am in New York - I love the city, but do miss bits and pieces of the DC life from time to time. Today I am missing Ben's Chili Bowl - it's 11:30 on a Thursday morning and my mouth is watering for their vegetarian chili cheese fries - I usually hate that greasy, messy kind of chaotic food but there is just something so incredibly addictive about this restaurant. Ben's is considered a Washington landmark - a restaurant built on U Street in the late 50's in the building of an old silent movie theater. It's one of the only businesses to survive the 1968 riots that followed the assassination of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. and you can tell the DC community appreciates and recognizes its history.

Just look at that plastic dish of salty non-meaty gooey goodness. Delicious, I say, delicious.

a homely (wal)nut!

2006-10-30T14:22:00.000-08:00

I am looking for a column written by Dave Eggers in the June 04 issue of Spin Magazine about his love for Joanna Newsom. Does anyone have it lying around, maybe under their couch? I love Joanna Newsom & I love Dave Eggers for making the point about which strange female artists we accept and love - the beautiful ones!

Here is a quote from the article:

I have no idea what she looks like, and I'm wishing I never find out. I hope she's not pretty. Aren't we all tired of the most distinctive female voices, like Lisa Germano's or Hope Sandoval's, being attached to beautiful faces, implying that quirkiness is acceptable only if the face emitting the sounds is pleasant to look at, or worse, that only attractive people have the courage to sing? Wouldn't it be nice if a woman could become popular with a face that could melt cheese? If Joanna Newsom knows what's good for her, she should be covered in boils.

He fantasized about her being a homely nut -- she's painfully thin, and wears cracked glasses; she can't get them fixed, and why?Because she spends all day singing like a crazy person, that's why!

illustrated botanical art

2006-10-26T09:56:00.000-07:00

love love love this whole series by eric beltz, an artist from california. i found his drawings while looking at an online gallery of a group show from earlier this year that featured Jenny Hart. Did you see her embroidered portrait of Bill Hicks? What should a person do if they feel the artistic impulse, but don't see it reflected back in what they create? It paralyzes me. I should stop worrying about it, stop worrying that everything I try to make comes out looking kind of shoddy and not all that creative. I should just do it because I enjoy it, and if something good comes out of my hands one day, all the better.

Lavender Diamond will take your cares away

2006-10-23T18:21:00.000-07:00

Post the first......

Today's bit of happy comes from my favorite band from last month. Lavender Diamond makes me think of shelley duvall's faerie tale theater mashed up with A Little Princess and Anne of Green Gables. Sounds from violins vibrating back & forth, pianos chomping away and little Becky Stark's pretty pretty voice all come together in a little three minute song that will make you feel as if someone is stroking your hair. you know? Go ahead, you can download a couple mp3s for free at their website .